of Notes from Underground pt 2. The next morning he is shocked at the extent of his thoughts and actions, and seeks to disavow them and distance himself from them as if he were now a different person. Probably until it happens again. If a person has self-destructive patterns of behavior, I wonder how helpful it is to determine a cause, such as chemical imbalance, past history, or whatever. At least he recognizes his weakness of exaggerating things. In this way it seems helpful to me to learn not to trust oneself. But does this mean that all of his conclusions about his friends were wrong? Not necessarily, but to have such a destructive reaction to those evaluations discounts them somewhat. Or makes them not the only elephant in the room.

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