audio version, is now over. I’m sad. I wish it were longer, which is hard to believe since the Appalacian Trail is around 2200 miles, but it is what it is.

The thing that I’m thinking about is when Katz says, “there’s this kind of hole in my life where drinking used to be.” Getting over an addiction is more involved than getting over the physical withdrawals. It also involves grieving an absence of the part of the day where one anticipated and was busy acquiring the substance, not just consuming it. It was something looked forward to, and without it there can seem a void of relationship. There may be other interests, but the nature of an addiction is that it was most loved. The other things feel more healthy, and one is glad to not have the side effects that ruin long-term enjoyment of the addiction, but there is not the high. Maybe there will be one day.

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